Day 23: Family, Friends and Love

This has been a great weekend for me.  My cousin took me out to eat at a Japanese Steak House on Friday night.  Saturday, one of my friends called me out of the blue to come hang out with her and her daughter.  Sunday was my brother's birthday party and the Yelp White Party!  I would be lying if I said I was on my best behavior each night, but I know I was not.  I did better than usual.  I ate smaller portions and made sure to still workout. 

I have to find a balance of interacting with my friends and family and eating healthy.   It is a very hard task to conquer...for me.  I completely refused the candy and snacks on Saturday with my friend.  My brother BBQ'd and I did get a hamburger, but nothing else.  There were chips and sodas and cake, but I steered clear of that.  Partially because of self control, but mostly because of the damage that was to follow at the White Party.  OMG!!  I probably set myself back a week from all of the food there. 

I have been having these moments where everything I eat is lingering in my head.  I don't want to become obsessed with what I eat to the point it seems like it's a task.  I want to eat healthy, but I don't want to give up everything that I like forever.  I know with how hard I have been working out I should have lost more weight than this, but it I am struggling with giving up the foods that are working against me.  Spending time with my family does not have to necessarily throw me off of track, I just need to mentally prepare myself for the triggers. 

I had so much fun with everyone that I spent time with and I cannot sacrifice the time that is not always promised just to avoid eating "bad food."  I found this online that I am going to try and use as a guide for everyday eating.  #10 is the hardest for me.  When I look in the mirror, I am not happy.  When I see photos of myself, I am not happy.  I want to see progression.