Day 19: Mind Control and Self-Discipline

Today was the worst day I have had so far in these past couple of weeks.  I did not wake up and go to the gym like I have been doing.  I was exhausted.  My body was tired and sore and I was just sleepy.  My cousin came over to hang out and I ran to the gym to get my workout in.  I did 15 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes on the treadmill.  When I got home I noticed I did not have my Fitbit on.  I went into complete panic mode. 

I called LA Ftness.  No one had turned it in.  So, I went up there and retraced my steps.  Nowhere to be found.  Then, I went to Walmart to see if I could find it there.  I went to Customer Service first and someone had turned it in.  Whaaaa???  It restored a little of my faith in humans and Walmart LOL.  I just knew I woould not find it there.  Walmart stores are approximately 150,000 (or more) sq. ft.  My Fitbit looks to be about 2 inches.  You wanna talk about someone that is happy.  I was skipping through the store.  Of course, I felt obligated to buy something...Walmart is such a trap :)

Anyway, I did not make it to the Zumba class at 5:45.  Instead I went to a Yelp event at this new gourmet grocery store Market District.  When I tell you it was a complete and total set up for anyone trying to lose weight with no self-control...I don't think I can make myself clear with words...Here are just a few pictures to describe my downfall

I dare not complain about the food itself because it was fabulous.  The first picture is Lobster Tootsie Rolls.  When I say I could eat those like popcorn, I am not playing. The best food item I had. Then, there was the dessert bar, fresh meats, cheeses and fruits and an entire room dedicated to sausage.  Pumpkin sausage, jalapeno cheddar sausage.  Luckily everything was served in samples, but when you have as many samples as I did, it constitutes as dinner.  I have to learn better self control.  It is ok to taste these items, but one taste should be my limit.  Just as I talk myself through the time during the workout, I need to do the same when I go out to eat.

 

The Yelp event definitely took more out of me than I anticipated and I woke up feeling sick from all the food I ate and it slowed me down during my workout. Hey, shit happens. This is no reason to throw in the towel. 

In my past, I've cried and beat myself up for messing up. Then, that would lead to binge eating and weighing myself like a maniac. Soon to find myself back to square one. Not exercising, not eating right and all the weight that I had lost back +5 lbs. Nah, not going out like that this time.

I accepted my mistake. Called it an official cheat day because even the most focused weight lifters and fitness gurus have a day...or a meal. Plus, how can I not reward myself for all my hard work? This is a process that will not fail from 1 or 2 slip ups. Remembering that is the key to success. 

I could've done better at my workout today, but instead of dwelling on it, I am thankful that I still made it to the gym.  I am taking this one day at a time and will not let one evening of sinful dining discourage me.  There is another Yelp event on Sunday.  There will be plenty of food and wine.  I am going to make sure to steer clear of the wine and drink plenty of water.  Now, I can't say I will be as skilled in refusing the good foods, but I will definitely only be tasting.  I made three kinds of mini cheesecakes (Lemon Blueberry, Chocolate Chip and Turtle).  They look delicious, but I have not tried any of them...and don't plan on it.  They are in the freezer!