Day 18: The scale is the devil!

I weighed myself and I am 10 pounds lighter than when I started.  Yes, I am wishing that I could lose all of this weight overnight.  It felt like I gained it all overnight.  I am positive that if I eat a single cracker, I will gain 15 pounds back.  That is how it seems to be going.  I know better than to trust the scale.  It has almost been 3 weeks and although 10 pounds is great, my weight fluctuates from day-to-day. 

A surefire way to get discouraged is to weigh yourself more than once a week.  I know some people that never weigh themselves.  Why? Because the scale is the devil.  Muscle weighs more than fat and if you are hitting the weights, most likely you are going to gain weight before you lose.  I took my measurements when I first started and took pictures with my sports bra on showing my stomach.  Without hovering over the scale everyday, I was able to see a difference in the clothes that I am wearing.

Another cycling class today with Mandy, my choice instructor, brought the pain. I was about to hop off that bike and walk when one of the vets screamed "My legs are on fire!!"  I don't know why that was the motivation for me to keep going, but it did wonders for me.  It helps to not feel alone on this fitness journey.  I'm good at motivating myself to keep going, but the moments I falter, I feel like I don't have anyone to give me that push I need.  I get canned responses when I do reach out.

I have no support from my friends or family.  I have been here two years and have not worked out with any of my friends once.  My brother tries to be a personal trainer and follows me around telling me how to lift weights, but never does a minute of cardio. My cousin James has an LA Fitness membership, but he is a half hour away from here.

 

I have a long haul ahead of me.  I have to stay focused and not let the mental me stop the physical me.  I have proven to my mental self that I can do it.  So, my physical self just needs to shut my mental self up. This is the first time in my life that I have worked out this consistently.  I know it has only been about two weeks, but it is still an accomplishment that I will acknowledge and praise myself for.  18 days straight at the gym is nothing to overlook. Pretty soon it will be 30 days...I don't even know how long I am going to try and go without missing a day.  I guess I will know when that day comes.